my prayer

My prayer is not that God takes away all my troubles, but that He will set me free from myself.....
The more I see myself and what's inside of me, I am grieved...and I dont really like what I see, not a pretty sight. And the more I realise that I need His Holy Spirit to work through me, to change me, and to help me. The more too I realise how fragile and weak my heart and human spirit is, and without His grace, I'd be lost and confused..not sure where would I end up.

My prayer is not that God protects me from all troubles, but that He will break the inside of me, so that I will die to myself, only having the life of Christ in me. The constant struggles inside, between my flesh nature and the Spirit life. At times, I am weak, made mistakes, wrong choices, following the flesh...and again, I am grieved. I cry out to Him who is able to save me and give me the strength to overcome...Jesus...the name above all names, My Saviour alone...Lifegiver...Comforter, who is forever faithful, loving and just.
How I desire to be more and more like Him...

And now my prayer is that, He will cleanse my everyday, work through my heart that it will become pure and blameless, filling it with a desire for Him..To know His heart more, that I may too have a heart like His...a heart filled with compassion and love.
I know I have a lot of work to do, and God has a lot to do too...but I do believe with all my heart, that He will grant me the strength and grace all the way, as I lean upon Him.

My prayer too that I will not live my life just for myself, but that as God breaks, mould,change, and matures...it will be a fragrant offering, outpouring to others.To be blessing and encouragement to as many people as possible.

Now, Lord..please help me.

resting

Had a really good of rest today.... and just being able to enjoy the presence of God without any distractions! Still learning to cast all my cares unto Him, and the more I do, the lighter my burdens are, and the more rest that I have in my heart.Problems and uncertainties seems not to matter anymore, and everythings fades away in the light of who He is.

It's a daily decision that I need to make, now...will try to remind myself, to always..at the end of the day, to cast all my cares for the day to Him..and taking the rest that He intend me to have in Him. There is so much peace that overflows when I'm in that place of rest with Him, the peace that surpasses all understanding, goes beyond everything else. It stills my heart, to be attentive to listen to Him, to what He wants to speak.

Felt that He is calling me closer...deeper...yes, it will come with a price.I guess I've resolved that I am willing...and I know that whatever things that I may go through, it will be worthwile.I know at times that my flesh may be weak, but I am confident in the Spirit that's in me. He will be my Helper and Counsellor.

Friends...take His yoke and rest in Him, cast all your cares unto His, for the simple fact that He cares for you, more than you can ever imagine.

nothing..

nothing really satisfies, but being in the presence of God

there is a deep sense of awe, holiness, love, grace, and mercy....

fill the heart so much, that the flesh can't take it

and all I can do is weep...

when God made you...

Encouraged myself today through His promises over my life. Again and again I do need to remind myself, because worries and distractions can take over the focus on Him.
Hmm...listened to beautiful songs, written by a couple who has trusted God to provide and to make a way for them. Through their faith in God, they are now able to testify about the faithfulness of God and how everything works out for His good purpose for our lives.

It's one of my heart desire, to see Jesus work through every area of my life, so that my life can bring Him glory. Giving the pen of my life to Him, and allow Him to write the best story ever...I have nothing to loose, when I have Jesus..nothing to fear, when I have Jesus..nothing I can't give, when I have Jesus...and nothing I can't have, when I have Jesus.

Jesus, my all in all...

(from the song) this I want to say ...
"When God made you, He must have been thinking of me too.." ^_^

here with me..

It has been rather a quiet times in my life, good that I have more time to ponder about stuff. After OC, trying to digest and apply things in my life about what God has spoken.
Challenging to really do things, and to keep it consistent...need the grace of God..a lot!!

So getting back into the routine of life, the repeated cycle of work and weekends, was affecting me a bit. Felt a bit restless for a while, well..I really almost can't stand routines for too long..haha..just need some new things. So God has really helped me a lot in how to be still before Him and to wait on Him on a lot of things and decision making.

Today, He reassures me that He is with me. And I could really feel His embrace, His presence, His love..very much in me.Once again He make known His presence in my life, when times I forget and not aware of Him.
Made me realise that I've not been looking and fixing my eyes upon Jesus, and a lot things in life,ministry, goals and plans, can really clutter my mind and heart, until there's no more room for Him, just Him, without other things attached.
I began to really ask God to once again search my heart, and to create again that broken and contriteness of heart towards Him...and again, I realise, that I may want so many things to feel fulfilled, but one thing that I really need, is Him in my life..more and more.

Listened to a sermon by John Bevere just now, and again, God was speaking to me..and again, I needed to repent and come back to Him, and began to seek Him again in a deeper way.

Time to seek the face of God...

I'm Back! A Note for the New Year!

Haihh...it's been a while since the last time I wrote on this blog.

Still having my holiday here in Indo with family, next week leaving to KK, Singapore and KL, before I return to Brissie...hope the weather will be cooler by then.

Been having a really great time here with family..man!! there's none like them!!! I praise God for them, been really fortunate to have my mom and dad, bro and sis who never stop looking after me...they are priceless!!!

The past year has been a wonderful year, lots of things happened, made some mistakes, learn so much, and thank God that I'm still where I am, and by God's grace, been able to just continue to walk, and follow where He is leading...maybe I've turned left and right, made some detours, u-turns, still...all I can see is the mercy of God again and again... thank you, Jesus :)

Well, this year I felt God is challenging me to believe that He is all that I need! Everything that I need, yup...still learning the art of letting go and let God.. :)
I know in my heart that no matter what happens, God is there with me, and I will see Him through the eyes of faith, not through my natural eyes and senses.
Learning that no mater how quiet God may seems, and how dark the days ahead, but God is still God, He is still who He says He is....the Great I Am, the past, present and future...from the beginning to the end....
Learning to cling on His word and let faith guides, it feels like walking in the dark, but yet, you know it somehow that each step that you take will land on a firm ground...you tripped and fall sometimes, but yet, there's still a road ahead where the feet will step on towards the journey ahead, the hope of reaching to the final destination, where finally the light shines, and the eyes see that it has been worthwhile to continue the journey and not giving up!

Anticipating what the year will bring...believing for the goodness and the hand of God even more upon my life...

Praying for those who are waiting upon God, that this year will bring a new revelation of His goodness and grace upon your life...

Time to sleep now..hehehe...

song for rainy days..

Hi, Jackie

This one here is for you...

A Dream

This is for you, sister...
may the song encourages you in walking the walk that He has set for you.
This would be my prayer for you :)

to encourage you,my friend..

Dearest my good and cherished friend in Singapore....
I believe that God will be with you in all things...you are in a good hand, as you look to Him and continue to trust Him with your life...

Hope this song will encourage you..to look up, and move forward with God wherever He guides you...Love ya!!

a time to trust

My last moment with my uncle in 2007...
Last week I lost an uncle...he passed away of heart failure, and I was feeling down....whenever I think about him, how he left this world in a quite tragic way. Nothing was going right for him..his family even left him...and he was alone..

Just couldnt bear the thought, and the question of where he would go after this life? what would happen to his life?felt really

helpless..and there's a lot of questions going on in my mind.

The moment I heard the news, I felt that at that moment, God was with me....and I could feel His comfort and peace surrounding me. Somehow, eventhough I do have questions which I dont have the anwers, but it seems that it doesnt matter at all. Felt that as I read the bible, God just reminding me that He is a Righteous God and a Just God...His ways are all just and right...

And His ways are always higher than mine..so I realised that I wont be able to understand things, with my limitations. And only God who knows and understand everything. When I look to Him, it seems that I could just put everything and trust Him with the outcome. Everything else fades in the light of His face.

Another season of learning to trust God and to worship Him for who He is in all circumstances.