Saturday, August 8, 2009

the past one week

From last week Wednesday until this week Friday, I was officially sick!haha!that would be my 1st record of being sick that long.really not nice, staying at home, feels weak and all you want to do is sleep.those were the times when I really wanted my Mom to be here :p

Many things I've learned during that time :

1) Now I know what a sick person goes through, seriously..sometimes you take health for granted, and when you get really sick like that, then you begin to take it more seriously. So I promise God and myself, that I will..be extra careful in looking after myself, that includes no more too late nights!!!!

2)On Friday last week, I thought I was recovering...and I just simply take pride that I could take care of myself well and I dont need anyone else. Haha, I was wrong about it..just on Sunday morning waking up with chest pain, and I was crying all over (such a baby, yes..I know..)and the 1st person I rang was Boy!yeah, I knew I could count on him at all times :) thank u, bro!!
And then two wonderful sisters sent me and accompany me in the hospital, they even visited and cooked porridge for me :) the wonderful love of the family of God.
Hehe...it was like simply God proves me wrong, about not needing other people...yeah :) thank you, Lord, for again teaching me..that we need each other.

"In a world where selfishness is what is all about...I dont need you, and you dont need me..let's just live our lives well for ourselves, me myself and I first, and that all that matters...*sigh*...where love has grown cold, and what's left is just love for self...God says it otherwise, we need to learn to love one another, put others above ourselves, always think of how we can meet the needs of other people..." well, something that I always pray for, to have the love of God growing in my heart..

3)I realised how blessed and loved I am by God. how fortunate that God has placed me in a good family, and good place like Australia, having the family of God around me...
and when I'm sick, I have access to medications, food, all that I need to recover...
Just had some thoughts when I was praying for my sickness...how many people out there, who died, simply because they dont have access to medicine and food?who would look after them?aren't we God's children are also responsible to look after the orphans and widdows?isn't this the religion that God approves?
where has the sense to fight for injustice has gone?isnt's that reflecting who God is?the God of justice?why aren't our heart breaking anymore when we hear and see these things happening in the world?

All the questions stays in my mind...I dont have all the answers...

Lord, please break our hearts...don't let it grow cold, fill it with Your compassion..let love be the reason behind everything that we do. Help us to live our lives that will bring glory to Your name.
Remind us, Lord...that we are here on a mission, to be Your hands, Your feet, Your mouth, Your everything...reflecting who You are!I pray this over everyone who are reading this right now..do a deeeper work in our hearts, Lord..In Jesus name, Amen! :)