faithful

The past weeks been a different season in my walk with God, not too sure how to describe it.
Not sure how to start too, but it's a time of rediscovering again a new kind of purpose, new kind of passion, new kind of perspectives. My ideas, plans, mindsets are challenged and I began to question in the light of God's truth, to really know and understand what it truly true.
A time where I felt there's a lot of things inside of me begin to die..and I really felt as if I'm just dying in the inside, felt no strength and can't do anything about it.
All I can do is to cry out to God.

Just a like a flower that begins to wither up and dried up..and all in a sudden, felt so poor, so broken, so helpless, realised that I'm really nothing.
It's when the revelation of how much I really need Him, that I cant live without Him, the thought of being without God scares me more than ever.
Felt very fragile, and didnt really like what I'm seeing inside of me. It's almost like I could see so much of the weaknesses and the frailty of my life and who I am, but at the same time, I'm yearning too for the Christlikeness to be a part of being who I am. It's the constant struggle and battle at all times. When that realisation hits, felt I'm torn between two worlds.

Also, maybe a bit restless too in my heart...and He knows it. And felt overwhelmed how patient and loving God is, He comforted and gave me peace. Eventhough the future is so uncertain, but all I know that His words stand forever.

And my prayer is that, I want to be found faithfully walking with Him, worshipping Him, and growing in my love for Him, nothing else really...nothing matters anymore, when finally my eyes have seen Him. He became the answers, the motivation, and there's nothing that you will not do if it's for Him. It all comes down to Him, to Him alone..our Saviour Jesus Christ.

Just to be found faithful to Him...forever.