Used to think that it takes a lot to do things, whether it be in the ministry or other areas in life. I need to be more skillful, stronger, smarter, more capable and stuff...
It's true...it does requires a lot of my time and effort, discipline, strong will.
A lot of times, there are failings, down moments, feeling like it's going round and round in the circle.
I found it takes a lot more to be still...
To be still when you are in the storm that's wrecking your world, to be still in the midst of noise and chaos around you. To be still when discouragement and disappointment comes. To be still when there are millions of questions in your mind, and there seems to be no answer. To be still, when you dont understand what's happening, and future seems to be uncertain.
To be still before God, and know that He is the Lord of all the earth.
In this stillness, we glorify Him. We hear His voice. We sense His presence. We are with Him.
Well, another lesson from God, this time around, when there are moments where I just feel as if I'm lost and confused...of all the questions that I have, expectations, dreams and desires...
Hmm...trying to figure out the whole picture and hope that things will go as I thought it will be..
But, it didnt happen that way! Yeapp, God proves again and again, that His way is always higher and better!!!
In Hobart, was seeking God and expecting that God will show me a glimpse of His plan and just the direction of where and what does He wants me to do. Of course my natural tendency, is to have a few things in mind already, and kind of proposing them to Him, and ask Him to choose one of it..hahaha...it's funny when I think about it.
I mean, it's like saying to Him...Okay, these are the best that I could come out with, what I think are Your plans for my life...so please choose one out these plans...
I'm glad that He knows how fragile and limited we are!!Yeah..I mean how clueless I am!!
Instead of showing me stuff like, the obvious plan of where and what and how...He impress the bible verse in Isaiah 30:21 " Whether you turn to the right or to the left, your ears will hear a voice behind you, saying, this is the way, walk in it".....
Hmm..I read it again and again..and couldnt really grasp what God is trying to tell me, in regards of the question that I'm asking Him...
Finally, the revelation came after I came back from Hobart, when I wasnt expecting it! Suddenly the revelation of the word, that it's not about this or that that I'm doing, it's not about which specific thing, place, or anything like that.It's not about me trying to figure out what's the best way for me...
But it's about living in the close and intimate relationship with the Holy Spirit...it's about every moment, taking each step at a time, to hear what He is saying, and immediately respond and obey.
That's why it's not about knowing it, but about having Him close, close enough that I can hear His voice. And when I'm walking with Him, when I'm walking in the right path, He'll encourage and reassure me that it is the right one.
Hmmm...a trip worth taken!
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