Many times...

The first time...
I heard about it, and it gripped my heart, it became an answer that I was always looking for.
It opened my eyes, it changes my life, it shows me a new way of living.

The second time...
I began to understand it, I began to find ways to apply it in my life. It became my life purpose and direction.
It guided me in every decision, it made sense of things when things began not to make any sense.

Somewhere in the middle...
I've forgotten about it, it began to fade away in my heart. I get caught up in my own small little world.
In it's absence, there was confusion, a lot more of common sense. Reality seems to be what only the eyes can see.
There were many more choices, many road signs.

The third time...
It began to take hold of me. Thought I've lost it, didn't realise it never left me. It gripped my heart again.
In a way I've never felt before, it speaks of a much more clarity of what life is all about.
It became stronger and more real than ever. Until it's only what I could feel and live for.

Now....
It begin to become a part of who I am. What the eyes see, what the ears hear, what the mouth speaks, and what the heart feels. It has transformed my mind. It gives one way to live, one purpose to live.
It made me believe, that there is only one way, one truth, that leads to life. It's beyond the logic and explanation.
It's what the heart feels, know, understand, believe, and what it become.
I need to show it, I need to say it, I need to give it away, I need to live it, I need to become...

Beautiful

This afternoon was at the wedding...and during the ceremony, when they are exchanging their vow, I felt wow...it's so beautiful. The joining of two hearts, two lives, in the presence of God.
It's something that God has ordained and initiated..long way before time.
And I kept on saying to myself, God..this is so beautiful. And my hearts was touched...as I begin to realise more how beautiful God is, it just amazes me more and more.
Then I was reminded of the picture of Christ and His bride, and I get excited!! Waiting for that day to come, it will be beautiful and glorious, pure and spotless.
Everything else fall short...in comparison to the beauty of our Lord!

At the riverside

I went for a walk this evening before dinner time, just felt that I want to have a walk with God. Grabbed a coffee, and started walking at the riverside. I love nature, and everything that's not man-made...they always remind me of how amazing and beautiful God is. At my area, Brisbane River is the closest to nature that I can get that's within walking distance..hehe...Thoughts just going around in my mind, in and out, so much to say, but no words came out of me.

Sat by the riverside, and just looking at the reflections on the water, and the skies with just few stars, wasn't late enough for the moon to make its ways.

Heard so much noises at the back, the traffic, people passing by, bicycles....but I tried to be still, and listen to His voice. I asked that He will speak. I needed to hear His voice. For reasons that I couldn't express fully, and for things that I can't find words to describe.

All of a sudden, I heard the sound of the ripples against the rocks....and at that moment, I heard it as more that just ripples, but I heard His voice.

My heart could hear His voice, saying .."I am here...I am still here with you.."

It was just the nature's sound, but to me, it's much more than that. It wasn't even a language, but to me, it speaks words that touched my heart deeply.

It was that same voice that I have learned to recognise over the years, the voice that leads me, and speaks hope and truth, the voice close to my heart. Nothing could touch me in the way that this voice could do. It's His voice....

That moment, reassured me that no matter what I'm going through, how blurry sometimes things are, how confusing things can get, and how unclear the path is, what matters is...He is with me...and that's all I need to know, that's all I need to hear.

My Shield

This morning, was on my way to work...as I was driving along the highway, heard a sharp sound..a tiny rock hit my windscreen!!! It was so tiny but yet make such a noise, and I was just thanking God that the windscreen protected and shielded me. If not then, it could be fatal ! well, think of the worst scenario....
At that moment, reminded that God is like that windscreen, it's a transparent glass, that sometimes I dont see, but it's surrounding me, protecting me and shielded me on every way.

At times when I am not aware of the danger coming, those small tiny rocks that hits my world, coming from every direction...it is Him who build His shield around me. I am safe in His presence...

Thank you, Jesus :) for always being there for me, You've protected me and you surround me with Your shield. You go before me, and You lead me each step of the way.

I'm still alive and still standing here, declaring Your praise every single
moment I live.
The LORD is my rock, my fortress and my deliverer; my God is my rock, in whom I take refuge. He is my shield and the horn of my salvation, my stronghold. (Psalm 18:2)